Shaken and stirred

It throws you for a toss when you realise that people close friends don’t know you as well as you thought.
It’s the end of the day, and i am still shaken by the above realisation. I wish we could communicate like those octupus-thingie aliens in the ‘Rama’ series, with our thoughts splashed all over the head in rolling, glorious multicoloured bands. Would help me. Atleast i wouldn’t get to hear “i don’t really know you that well”.
And i’d also like if i could be aided in making decisions by means of huge, arrow-shaped, blue-coloured neon signs pointing towards a particular decision and saying “choose me”. I don’t mean to say i make bad decisions, it’s just that i dislike making them at all. A perfect example of my brain going into overdrive and thinking out all possible pros and cons, implausible scenarios, every single thing which may or may not happen, weighing each out and agonising what it means.
Sad, huh?

nirvana

i longed to belong. now, i am happy i don’t.

Breaking news..

Read this early in the morning. and was horrified on more than one count.
Firstly, the use of the ‘TCS’ name in the headline. i can imagine similar news, in an earlier time, being printed as Girl killed by lover and maybe somewhere in the article itself, nestled this fact She worked in TCS. i cannot fathom why it was used as part of the headline. was it to grab a few more eye-balls? or to say ‘oh look she worked here’ . or merely to emphasize the fact that she could be me or you, as in ‘the victim was a member of an educated, working class..against whom such crimes rarely(?) occur. she could be one of you. hell, she could be you!!‘ wait..maybe that’s what they wanted to convey!
The other thing was the peppering of ‘orkut-facts’ throughout. She had n scraps and n fans and n friends. this guy was on her friends list. she had written so-and-so about him. what, if at all anything, do they want to prove through this? that she was very popular? does the crime change if a person is more, or for that matter less, popular? does it have a different impact on those concerned? (forget the impact on the reader..in my mind, he is always the silent observer/common man from r.k.laxman) and again, who’s to say that nugget of (mis)information on orkut is a fact? what do they intend to convey by basing their news on that? is it ‘acceptance’ of the online revolution sweeping across swaths of indian youngsters? or is it again that ‘attention-grabbing’ at work? mommas everywhere will tell their kids..see, orkut is unsafe, dont use it. governments and social organisations will file more complaints, asking for orkut to be banned. more hype, fed by myths generated by the press, resulting in more copies sold, resulting in …

Quite an amusing day, what?

Had a nice day today…with quite some funny things happening.
While executing a piece of code, the IDE gave up and presented me with “Parallel query server died unexpectedly”. Ouch. R.I.P. , dear server. I nearly died laughing over their message. Later on in the day, in some meeting, this guy says “there were 12 board members in front of me that day”. My wandering mind caught that and told him (mentally ofcourse, i am a nice girl. not rude. seriously) “and there are 28 bored members in front of you today, sir!” Then this DBA (reads as Database Admin when translated into English) came up and said “i cant log in to the database” . Whoops, what am i, a mere developer to do if the Admin is locked out – go pray to the server Gods maybe? I hope he did, i need that server access soon. As a result of this event (non-event? whichever. Don’t quibble!) i had most of the afternoon free. From afar i saw this gang of ladies approaching. On a closer look, it was still a gang of ladies approaching. They came and nicely settled at my desk and started yakking away, disturbing everyone around. Weapons of Mass Destruction huh?
Post lunch a colleague had come up, and hearing me discussing ‘Happy Feet’ with someone, said, “i love animations. I have a (whole) collection of all the animated movies, latest and old.” i asked to borrow ‘Robots’…i got a blank look and a “what’s that?” Poor guy, he got it all mixed up. I kept a straight face, i did. I tell you, i am a nice girl.
And lots of other interesting stuff also happened during the other meeting, most of which i have now forgotten. 
I knew there had to be a reason people take notepads to meetings!

Remembered another incident: A colleague coded a service, to perform a specific action repeatedly. He named it ‘repeatSAM’. I think he should have called it ‘playItAgainSam’.

Claymation

You have changed me, for better or for worse. You have redefined me, broken apart my erstwhile form. You have stretched me, often almost to breaking point. You have twisted me, made a corkscrew until i wasn’t even sure what i was. You, have pulled me into a hundred different directions, all at once.
And then you say i am the most rigid. If only you knew.

After all, what more do you expect from a poor little lump of potter’s clay?

I have been meaning to do this since last week..

Here, is something i started writing. And never went beyond a few paragraphs, due to a variety of reasons. However, i did give it to SEV, who very ably took it up and made it into a neat, awesomely written story.
Keep writing dude. You simply rock!!